PrincessAlaska

Oh man... such chaos has hit the past couple weeks! If you know anything about me at all, you know that I've had seizures for quite some time now (14 years, later this year, to be exact). And also, you know that the seizures have been progressively getting worse and worse. They went from simple 'blanking out' moments, with slurred speech, to falling during seizures, to the eventual breaking bones from falling while having seizures. To put it bluntly, the variety of meds I've been on, have just frankly, stopped working. Well, after some major threatening by a loved one, I finally decided get my act together, to look into exactly *why* my condition is getting worse & worse. I recently had a week-long seizure study performed, and after 2 & a half days, I was released, they had enough results quickly, because my brain is CONSTANTLY having seizures 24/7.  And then when I have the seizures where I fall/break bones/slur speech/blank out, those are 'massive' seizures, where my brain is too overloaded with the constant mini ones, that my brain in effect shuts down & reboots.

Well, to solve this issue, I have two options... change meds again, or have a brain surgery. I was told that after going through at least 5 different seizure meds that don't work, that if I change to any others, the likelihood of them working to control the seizures, is practically slim to none. Now, I was put on a med to slow down the constancy of  the 24/7 little ones... that should work some. I am also to be weaned off of one med that apparently really did more harm than good. And, on May 1 & May 15, I am to go in for testing, to see how effective the brain surgery will be. The biggest problem that the doctors could see from the get-go, is that I'm ambidextrous, so they need to see what will be effected with that. Otherwise, they have said in regards to the seizures, I will be 100% cured, no seizures ever again (assuredly some during recovery, but none after a while) or I will be no worse off than I am now, but at least the seizures will never get any worse than they are currently. But I am very hopeful, very thankful (and yes, still very scared), that I have been presented this option of surgery. And, God-willing, that I am seizure free by my birthday, later this year, I will go to Blue Man Group, as a celebration for being seizure free & turning the big 3-0. But I do ask of you, if you believe in prayer, or even if you don't, say a few prayers for me for the next few weeks and months, that everything goes according to plan.

Another thing, closely related, I have been dealing with a lot of anxieties, clingy-ness, moodiness, and a LOT of other issues (not going into now) my whole life... getting worse and worse over time.... and after seeing a psychologist for a while, I finally got to go to a psychiatrist on my own (thank god, so annoying going with a parent ~ the insist on going in to my visits, and screw me over royally) and after one visit, I have finally figured out exactly what the hell is wrong with me... pretty much what I was told when I was little, but my parents (especially mom) refused to have me "labelled" as... I have borderline personality disorder & bipolar. I'm not just "crazy, rude, and obnoxious" as my parents have always called me. And, as weird as it may sound, after I went and looked up both disorders online, I swear, I felt this feeling of peace & tranquility wash over me ~ I even slept better that night than I have in YEARS!!

But, the silver lining of my cloud of chaos.... I might be getting a new dog!! She's an Alaskan Husky/Australian Kelpie mix. She has one brown eye, and one blue eye, and I'd say strawberry-blonde fur. Her name's Alaska, she's about 5 years old, and she's VERY shy. Patrick & I have met her a couple times, we need to meet her at least one more time before she can go home with us. I can't wait till we get to take our girl home with us!!

Watching "The Ten Commandments" on ABC... Easter ritual practically. Trying to organize my work on Deviant, while playing FB apps, and checking my games on Drawception. I have to say that's a completely addicting site!! And overall just trying to figure out what I want my character to look like in the newest rp group I'm in. I have absolutely no clue.. all I know is she's pregnant... and a slave to (formerly) a werewolf (his baby, btw) and a current slave to a vampire. So the only idea I keep getting in my head is some chick in a short & low-cut French maid outfit, with a baby bump. No clue on the rest of her - like eye color, hair length, color, or style - or anything else! Grrr! Oh well...

The challenge:

Day 01: Favorite Pokemon ~ Blissey


Day 02: Least favorite Pokemon ~ Jynx


Day 03: Favorite starter Pokemon ~ Torchic


Day 04: Favorite Evolution ~ Gothitelle


Day 05: Favorite legendary Pokemon ~ Shaymin (land form)


Day 06: Most terrifying Pokemon ~ Darkrai


Day 07: Most adorable Pokemon ~ Skitty


Day 08: Most amusing Pokemon ~ Wobbuffet


Day 09: Favorite Pokemon type ~ fire


Day 10: Least favorite Pokemon type ~ bug


Day 11: Favorite new Pokemon from Black & White ~ Audino


*HAPPY HALLOWEEN!* Day 12: Favorite Pokemon attack or move ~ flamewheel


Day 13: If you lived in the Pokemon world, what would you be? ~ wigglytuff


Day 14: If you were a gym leader, what would be your specialty? ~ fire (specialize in aesthetic nature of fire moves)


Day 15: Favorite region in the Pokemon world ~ Hoenn


Day 16: If you could live anywhere in the Pokemon world, where would it be?


Day 17: If you could be any Pokemon, what would you be? ~ Charizard


Day 18: Favorite Gym Leader ~Erika


Day 19: Favorite Elite 4 member/Champion ~ Lance


Day 20: Favorite Pokemon Professor ~ Professor Ivy


Day 21: Favorite Pokemon bad guys


Day 22: Favorite Rival


Day 23: A Pokemon which reminds you of a friend


Day 24: A Pokemon you'd find useful in real-life


Day 25: A Pokemon based on your favorite animal


Day 26: A Pokemon that is your favorite colour


Day 27: Favorite Pokemon game
Heart Gold & Soul Silver, Black & White

Day 28: What did you nickname your rival?
one of the default names

Day 29: Favorite Pokemon tune or song
"Brother My Brother" ~ Blessed Union of Souls

Day 30: Most nostalgic element of Pokemon
memories of friends in school (10+ years ago now) talking about pokemon, playing games, trading cards, and watching shows & movies... in the words of Archie & Edith Bunker ~ "those were the daaaaaaaaaays!"

** and Happy Thanksgiving to all tomorrow! safe travels, good eats, and great company! love you all!!**